Periods. Perfection. Pivots.

all the things & maybe a little TMI

Hey friends. It’s been a highly emotional week around here. I don’t know about you but I often forget how tiring big emotions can be. I am like a toddler and need a lot more rest after being so in my feelings. Today has been a cheeseburger meal followed by 2 cookies kinda day. You know what I mean? My heart is shattered and if I can’t think of something else I’m gonna fall into a puddle of tears. Here’s my something else.

I have my period for the third time in 6 weeks. It is draining AF! I have been blessed with a lifelong light period and minimal pain but not this period. Oh no. This period is one of those dreaded perimenopausal periods I’d heard about where you stand up and feel like a waterfall of blood is falling from your vagina. Holy shit it’s unpleasant! I am hoping and praying this is not my new normal but who knows, Peri likes to fuck with you BIG TIME.

Speaking of peri, I don’t get night sweats but I have found myself wearing less and less to bed over winter because I am just too damn hot. I have always been a person who feels the cold so during winter I wore the warmest jammies and fluffy socks and liked the blankets pulled up to my chin. Not anymore. I am now wearing a crop top and knickers to bed, and I usually have to have one arm or leg out of the blankets. Sometimes during the night, I need to expose my whole back or pull the doona off so it’s just the sheet covering me because I am too warm and my neck and chest are sweaty. So gross.

Look at these little jonquils I picked from my garden! Aren’t they the most perfect little flower? I ADORE them! The smell. The look. The anticipation of waiting for them to pop up. I love it all. When we get a lot of rain, the flower stems start to bend and lie on the ground( the little black speckles are dirt I couldn’t shake off) that’s when I go and pick them to pop in jars. I have one on the kitchen table and one on my desk. These two little jars send perfume almost through the whole house.

 

Now, we all know I love the Pinch of Yum soft chocolate chip cookie recipe. I’ve been making triple batches of them for a while now and everyone who eats them will agree they are the best and most perfect cookie. And I agree, they are top-tier cookies. But lately, I have been unhappy with the texture. They feel too airy and not dense enough for me. I am 200% sure it is my error and nobody else has said a thing about them except “Can you please make more cookies?”  But I wanted more from my cookie, which I will only eat warm from the oven. Once they are cool I am not interested in them. I decided it was time to try a new recipe. 

Of course, I googled “world’s best chocolate chip cookie” and looked through the results. Lots to choose from. Then I went to one of my favourite baking websites- the Pancake Princess- who does a heap of comparison bakes on all our favourite things. I spent a good amount of time reading through blog posts, websites, and reviews and finally settled on this recipe from Cake Over Steak. And they are pretty good, a bit of a faff around because you have to brown the butter, but they are a solid 8/10. The search will continue. I know MY perfect chocolate chip cookie is out there.

Because of said period, there was no way I could do my planned weekly workouts because my body needed gentle movement, stretches, kindness, not core workouts and boxing. So I pivoted to yin yoga and felt good about it. I am still building on my VERY new habit of moving my body Monday-Friday mornings but without all the “shoulds” that usually accompany my thoughts when I am trying to build an exercise habit. Feels good.

I’m off to light the fire and cook some pasta for dinner. I hope your days have been nice. Thanks for being here.

Talk soon xx